I’ve been working on finishing this project:
The shelves have been painted for weeks, but I’m just now getting around to finding frames for all the pictures. So many cherished photos, this is only a fraction of the ones I’d like to put up. I wonder if the shelf is overwhelmed and too busy looking but I have a very limited space to hang photos.
My grandparents have all passed away as well as my beloved great-aunts, Aunt Alys and Aunt Coco. I miss them terribly and I often wonder what they would have thought about my situation. Single and pregnant by donor egg and donor sperm. Part of me thinks it would be beyond their reckoning, futuristic and sci-fi sounding. Heck, I barely believe it has happened, myself. I think that each of them, in their own way, would have been judgy. I know the aunts would have swooned to think of an unmarried mother in the family. Oh, the scandle. It would have been talked around the whole family, I’m sure.
But Aunt Alys was married to my Uncle Mick and they were childless. Aunt Coco was unhappily unmarried because she fell in love with a Catholic boy and her parents forbid her to marry him and of course she was childless, too.
Perhaps they would understand some of the heartbreaking longing I’ve gone through. Maybe they would have seen that I just could NOT stop the journey toward this, the biggest of any dream I’ve ever had. That something far bigger than myself was propelling me forward, no matter what challenges were faced. Perhaps if they had been born in a different time, in different situations, each of them may have thought about going forward the way I have.
I know they would have all loved my baby when it made it’s appearance.