Something felt different when I woke up this morning. Part of me has turned to wood. I’ve hardly cried at all today. I still have so much to go through. Today I must put my sweet baby boy, Greyson P into the ground. He gave me the happiest 20 weeks of my life and I’m so sorry sweet baby that Momma couldn’t keep you safe. I don’t want to think about and can’t picture living on this earth without my son.