Clara B. Dog is home! Poor pup.
Xrays showing the plate, screws and 20 staples that now hold my dog’s bionic knee together:
A FAKE bone showing what the veterinarian did:
It’s going to be a long recovery I’m afraid. While she was on the leash and hobbling gently around the yard with a sling under her back end she looked so longingly at the pasture that surrounds our house.
In the afternoon, I helped Mom wrap gifts. This was one of my holiday jobs as a kid, one year I even wrapped gifts that were for me. She’s tried several times over the years to teach me her patented technique of cutting wrapping paper using a butcher knife. This really does make the straightest, cleanest and fastest cuts.
First you use the butcher knife to poke a hole in the spot where you want to make the cut:
Then you fold the paper using the little cut as a guide:
Make sure it’s a good, crisp crease and straight!
Use the butcher knife to cut along the crease. And viola! A perfect, straightly cut piece of paper ready to create the perfect package.
In the evening, I went with E’s family to look at Christmas lights. This is something I love to do but rarely have anyone to do it with and I was holding it together pretty well today so I was glad they invited me. Dollface had written a get well note to Clara and she was surprised when Clara wrote back. She pointed out that Clara couldn’t write, and I told her that Clara had told me what to write down. So sweet.
She also gave me a picture she’d drawn of our family at Christmas. All of us on a Christmas background and me with a baby in my arms and standing in front of a black hole. “Because your baby died.” C apologized, I didn’t cry and nothing more was said. I had thought that the children were basically unscathed by all of this. I don’t know what they have been told, very hard for a 5 year old to understand.
Or a 39 year old.
Once again I’m hating that my situation has brought awfulness to my family.
The mail is now full of emotional bombs on a daily basis. Formula coupons, a hospital bill, a flyer for an infant loss support group. But I knew something more horrible than any of those has been on it’s way and I knew would break me into pieces and it came today.
Greyson’s death certificate.
But I didn’t break into pieces. Probably because something else also came in the mail today. Something that eased the blow and distracted me. Something so thoughtful and kind from someone I don’t even know IRL. Kim from The ART of Baby Making and her sweet friend Libby sent me a beautiful little necklace. I just love looking at Greyson’s name on the inside. (pics coming tomorrow because my crappy camera can’t take pics of sweet little things in my dim house at night without too much flash…grr)
Kim and your sweet friend Libby– I’m not even sure what to say to thank you for this kind-hearted gift. How did you know when to send it so that it came just when I needed it? Thank you for your thoughtfulness and for your impeccable timing. Thank you for being part of my blogworld and helping me to survive. xoxoPaige