I cannot believe I’m the aunt to a TEENAGER. It’s been all boys, texting and wii this past year so I wonder what 13 will bring her. Where did the years go? I’m proud to be the aunt of such a beautiful, funny and smart young woman.
Oreo ice cream cake at E’s house to celebrate. I loved watching E show Stretch a few chords on her new guitar and joking around with the whole family.
While there we got to talking about injuries and who’d had stitches. I guess I’m the only one in the family who has had them which is surprising since we grew up on a farm and were around tools and such all the time. Mom busts out with the info that I was the first patient at our local hospital’s emergency room. I swear I’ve never heard this before. I remember falling in the bathtub and cutting my eyebrow open. I remember driving there holding a washcloth on my cut and asking Mom if I could pray without folding my hands. I remember being scared. But I don’t remember being the first patient. Mom says there were doctors and nurses just standing around waiting for the first patient. I imagine they were disappointed it wasn’t some big trauma but just a clumsy little girl.
Three inches of snow here and a Snow Day from school. I sat on my butt all morning watching TV and laying around. In the afternoon I did laundry and cleaned yet another layer of dust off of everything I own, vacuumed and tore out the other half of my kitchen floor.
And I took my first Xanax. I hated to do it because I really didn’t feel the need but both the dr and the couselor cautioned to try for the first time when I was at home so I could know how I responded when I needed it. I can see why it’s addictive. The vacation I needed. The ugly emotional wheel stopped for a while. I wish I didn’t have to have those pills but I hope they can help me when I’m actually feeling driven to the edge.
To Iris’ Mommy: Thank you for your kind comment and for understanding and defending my “voice”. Thank you for being part of my support system and listening (reading) without judgement.
To Nell: Heferrini is my new favorite word!