Reiki, Part 2

After blogging last night, I opened an email from my mother. I guess she’s been feeling that her grief is “getting in my way” and feels guilty about crying in front of me. We’ve been having an email exchange about it. Anyway, within the latest email she talks about my great grandmother:
“Remember the story about Grandmother Yevette seeing a golden light surround you as Grandpa baptized you. She told that story many times through the years & I’m sure it happened exactly the way she said.”

Ummm… I don’t remember ever hearing this story before. Mom strikes again. I couldn’t help but wonder about the timing of it. I’d just had golden light around me as part of this mystical Reiki experience and she tells me about Grandma Yvette seeing golden light around me as an infant. It all seems a little unworldly to me.

I asked her about it tonight and she said Grandma Y talked about it a lot when I was a small child. When Grandpa Williams sprinkled the water on my forehead Grandma Y saw a gold light “come out” and surrounded me. She said it stayed with me for the rest of the service. I tried to press Mom for more details but she couldn’t remember much more.

In the first 10 seconds of laying eyes on me this morning, Jae, who has some experience with Reiki, noticed something different. “Reiki was wonderful for you, wasn’t it?” she asked. She said she I looked 26 pounds lighter and 10 years younger. That my skin looked lighter and alive again. When I checked myself out in the mirror, I had to agree with her. The clinched, tight look has loosened and wrinkles that were starting to form between my eyes were less pronounced. I think this experience with Reiki has been life changing…such as life is these days. I haven’t been able to recognize my eyes in the mirror since losing Greyson, but this time when I looked, I saw a tiny glint of the Paige I’m familiar with peeking out at me.

I went to visit Greyson’s grave after school and I didn’t cry. I didn’t really feel at peace but sort of numb.

I still feel plenty of pain and have cried at other times today but something has definitely changed.

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By tearsandtantrums Posted in grief

10 comments on “Reiki, Part 2

  1. I'm happy that you're seeing the Paige we know start to peek out a little at you.I'm also happy that the massage has done such good things for you. Cool story about the glow around you. Remind me to tell you a story when you come over.

  2. My mother is a huge believer in healing touch. She's practised it on me since I was a baby. Whenever she would massage me, I would instantly feel better. I'm really happy to hear that it's been easing your pain and that you've captured a glimmer of Paige again.

  3. Touch is incredibly important and even from just a scientific perspective reiki works — it gets happy hormones going that are essential. Add in the spiritual and you can't go wrong. I am so happy that there is a flicker of the golden-aura-Paige showing through again!

  4. I am a fan of Reiki and I am loving the experiences you are having. We are made up of energy and energy is healing, so it's awesome you have found something that is "working" for you.I loved the golden light story your mom shared with you, better late than never, but I do believe the timing was impeccable. xoxoxo

  5. Beautiful post and story from mom. I'm so happy that you are having this experience with Reiki and that you're starting to recognize yourself again. I think InB. has it right – touch, happy hormones, and the spiritual mixed and you can't go wrong.

  6. Paige sweetie, I am glad that you are seeing more of yourself again- however it came about. It does sound like this Reiki massage has been good for you.

  7. Hi Paige, want you to know I've been following your journey and that I pray for you daily as you go through this. I'm passing along a blogging award to you. The details are over on my blog. Thank you for sharing your journey.

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