I changed my mind.
I don’t want to let go.
I don’t want a greater understanding.
I don’t want the curtain between the worlds lifted for me.
I just want to hold my baby in my arms.
My real human baby in my chubby physical arms.
Not held as a spirit or a soul or energy.
Not in my heart.
IN MY ARMS!
That is the only place he belongs.
How one day can be so different from the next.
But like it or not….
I’ve seen “555” twice today.
On the clock in the morning and on my odometer in the afternoon.
I feel completely dense looking for meaning in the minutia and in the big picture.
The left side of my brain is pretty handy with the logical veil.
Or maybe I visit denial for moments at a time.
I searched and thought and thought.
I really don’t know how I missed it.
Finally with the help of MB (Thanks!)
I realized it is a significant number.
The most significant date of my life.
My son was born on December 5.
Picture of the Day:
I really had no inspiration for tonight’s pic and I don’t think it turned out at all decent but I didn’t want to quit on the 20th day when I’m so close to forming a habit. (It takes 21 days to form a habit. Yes, I’m looking at you, MC) So I went all over the house gathering up all the books I want to read or wanted to read. I really had unread or half read books in every room. Quite the stack.
Evelyn, I’m very curious about your 365 challenge. If it’s a picture project and you’d like to share your pics, I’d be very interested to see. If it’s some other type, I’d be interested in hearing about it. email@example.com If not, I completely understand.