Em and I are signed up for an October cycle. It took me a while to pin down the emotion, yes, I’m excited, hopeful, scared and all the familiar emotions from cycles past but being in this with some one is also comforting and a little less scary than other cycles. I get emails like this from Em all the time:
“Wonderful news!!! It just so happens I’m free that weekend in October 🙂 No bad, no ugly…ALL GOOD!!! Can’t wait for this to get started! Just think, in less than a year, you’ll be a mama 🙂 xoxo”
Sometimes I’m still stunned that we’re doing this and that I have such a special person in my family.
Then next thing is a meeting with a lawyer. I know the clinic needs some sort of contract by September 29. Should I just call the lawyer and say I’m preparing for a donor egg cycle with a known donor? I want Em to be able to pull out up until the very last minute as she didn’t take very long to think about this before agreeing to it (I don’t think she will pull out) but once those eggs are out of her I want them to be mine legally. Does she have to sign away some sort of “parental” rights? Does anyone know what I should ask for? Anybody reading ever use a known donor???
My coworker and friend just lost a 7 week pregnancy. Here’s what she posted on FB:
“I wanted to let you all know that my pregnancy has come to a natural end. Although this has saddened and disappointed me, I have complete trust in God and know that this is what is for the best. This has brought me a deeper gratitude for my loving and beautiful family and an empathy for all those who have and will walk this path. When you see me next, I will have a smile on my face and joy in my heart because I know that I am blessed.”
A smile on her face and joy in her heart? I know everyone handles this kind of thing differently and a 7 week loss is different from a 20 week one but I just can’t understand. It makes me feel like the way I handled my 20 week loss was mentally way off the chain and unbalanced. I’m still not over it, nor will I EVER think it was “for the best”.
Tomorrow is my birthday and I’m way off my healthy eating project in case you read over there and are wondering what’s going on…