I KNOW! What’s happening here?! I’m STUNNED…times 3.
Let me back up a little and tell you about my weekend. On Sunday, I had a sudden bleeding episode. It was way more than spotting but after that first small gush it stopped completely. It scared me badly but I’d had an episode like this when I was pregnant with Greyson so I tried to hope for the best until I knew what was really going on. Monday, I had an EPIC bleeding episode. Lots of bright red blood and clots the size of golf balls. I was terrified and knew with everything I had that I’d lost the pregnancy. I went to bed and cried for hours. I didn’t take my evening or morning medicine because I was sure there was no reason to. I don’t think I’m exaggerating here…there was A LOT of blood and clots. I didn’t think there was any way a fetus could survive that.
I almost didn’t show up at the doctor’s office at all because it was my last chance and now it was over…but when I called the nurse talked me into coming in just to see exactly what had happened.
I told the ultrasound technician what was going on and although I tried to prepare myself, I cried a little and she gave me a hug. I wouldn’t look at the screen, just waited in the awful silence to hear her say the inevitable. But she didn’t say it…she gently said to look…there’s an egg sac and another one and a third one. Girls, I’ve never cried that hard in public before. I asked her over and over if she was sure. She showed me the heartbeats and patiently answered my questions one by one.
So they are real now and I’ve begun to love them.
The doctor said that sometimes there’s a little bruise in the uterus and there’s no place for that blood to go except out. The bruise showed up on the ultrasound. She said it was very small but there was sure a lot of blood coming out of me for something so little. I’m still spotting quite a bit.
The difficult part is that this is now an extremely high risk pregnancy. The doctor says it’s not a question of if I will be asked to selectively reduce one or more but that I will definitely be advised to do so. This scares the hell out of me and I do not want to do it. The doctor didn’t use these exact words but basically said it would be best if one started struggling a little to justify the reduction. She said the best case triplet pregnancies only make it to 33 weeks or so and still need NICU support for several weeks if they make it. Obviously being overweight and so old I’m not a best case scenario. And it’s always in the back of my mind that I didn’t make it anywhere near 33 weeks with a singleton last time.
I go back in one week to see their progress.
So while I’m over the moon happy and excited….I’m terrified too.